At work, stress is something common. Yes? No? Well, maybe that depends on the nature of the job. Paling-paling koman pun stress dengan officemate yang sengal.
When I first found out I was preggers, I know I have to learn to let go. Let go in the sense that I won’t let stress affect my pregnancy in any way. I’ve seen and I’ve heard too many stories of miscarriages, pre-mature labours or pregnancy complications due to office stress. I pray to God please don’t let anything happen to my baby.
I hate it when I couldn’t help myself thinking about work when I go back home. When I yelled at IY for something silly he did like spilling his dinner on the floor. When I don’t feel like talking to Gee – not even smiling at his silly jokes. During my morning sickness phase, I let those things took over me. Then I realized, I can’t go on like this. I have to let go. Whatever happens in the office, stays in the office. When I go home, I’m not that career lady. At home, I’m a wife, a mommy. Gee needs his bestfriend his wife to talk to and IY needs his mama his clown to entertain him.
I notice lately IY is more clingy to his Ayah. He wants Gee to dukung him even when we have the stroller with us. He woke Gee in the middle of the night to make his milk. He wants Gee to do this, Gee to do that. His pick up line would be “Mama ada baby la Ayah, mama penat. Ayah takde baby dalam perut”. Mula2 memang tergelak dengar, suka sebab yeay Ayah kena buat. But deep down inside, sometimes I feel jealous when he’s more close to Gee than me. I know, silly me.
When my queasiness subsided, I learned to stay clam in situations of any possible stress I foresee coming . Get the job done and get over with it. No more yelling, no more nagging, no more over thinking of things. Just do what I’m paid for to do. If things go haywire, say sorry (if the mistake was mine) and rectify it. No need to go over the moon and back looking for what went wrong or who to blame. Buang masa je.
Well, that’s about work. What about the people stress? What about the annoying people in the office around me that makes me go grrrr!!! I learn to shut down on those kind of people. Talk to them only when I need to and minimize unnecessary contact.
I just want to have an easy pregnancy.
Ya Allah, please give me the strength and wisdom to handle everything good or bad that happens around me. Perkara yang baik itu datang dariMu, salurkan kan lah ke anak ini. Yang buruk itu datang dariku, jauhkan lah dari anak ini.